Hi friends! How’s everyone doing? Good, bad, medium rare, fair to middling? I write about art, creativity, the process, the practice and small business but during a global pandemic, everything has to been looked at through the lens of “how are you really doing”. And not necessarily as a downer lens.–I think there have been silver linings for a lot of us.
For me, there has been a noticeable difference on my energy levels and how and when I create and it took me probably six months to realize this is probably “normal”. Pandemic fatigue, mental and physical, is real. Now, rather than fight it, I observe it…like, oh, this is when I have a surge to write cards, make a pot roast and do laundry. Oh, now. I need to nap. Oh, now I must urgently get art supplies that I can’t live without. Oh, now I must paint that flamingo or I can’t sleep tonight. Oh, now I won’t leave the couch until I’ve binged “Your Honor” (so good). I’m probably late in the game to talk about these stay at home rhythms but somehow it helps me feel not so crazy. Why am I so tired? Why am I so energized? But at new weird (wrong?) times. Everything my body used to know about schedule has changed. The confines of our house has turned me into a human Las Vegas.
Today I’m not fighting it. I had a nap at 11:30am. Yup. It was brief, more of a recharge, but I was awake at 4:30am so late morning is practically night! Someone told me recently “they’re just not feeling it” as far as creativity goes and I suggested, also as a reminder to myself, we’ve changed. What used to work, might not now. Maybe we can only paint on Fridays? Or for 20 minutes? Or write a couple of times a week instead of daily? Or listen to the book instead of reading it. There are optimistic signs around us that we are edging towards a healthier time but it’s not over. We’re in the late mileage of a marathon. I’ve done a half marathon and if there are any similarities, I just had to keep going, slow and steady and just do that one step. The creative equivalent of just do today.
How am I? Today, this moment, I’m pretty good. It’s Friday, I’m doing a commission this weekend and I’m sending out my new wholesale catalogues. And that feels like a lot and enough. The to-do lists have gotten smaller but more precise.
Hang in there. If you’re feeling strong, pass the baton to your buddy. If you’re not, reach out. There’s a hand for you.
Happy Friday. xo